Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Michael, Madoff and Palin
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Hey, Nurse!
There are real nurses. And then there are reel ones. Fifty-three years ago some of us who earned our stripes in nursing entered what might be called the marine boot camp for nursing students: The Bellevue School of Nursing.
In recent weeks, one of the networks debuted a dramatic series with a nurse as the lead character, HawthoRNe. Just in case you missed it, this nurse is not only an RN, her professional title is embedded in her last name. Clever, right? She's played by the beautiful Jada Pinkett Smith. Ms Smith---the wife of actor, Will Smith--- is also the show's executive producer.
On another channel, another nurse drama, Nurse, Jackie. ( I almost slipped and said Nurse, Judy but Judy's a judge in one of those reality shows headlined by people in black robes, not white lab coats.) Edie Falco stars as Nurse Jackie. In reel life Ms Falco was the beleagured wife of Tony Soprano.
Now, I admit I haven't seen either of these shows. But I have seen some Hawthorne promos and I caught Ms Falco on The View and heard her in an interview with NPR's Terri Gross. And one thing I observed that these reel nurses have in common: they are both tough cookies! In one of the Hawthorne promos our heroine is being manhandled by somebody in what looks to be a hospital corridor or maybe it's a police precinct. Her hair is messed up pretty badly, there's blood down the front of her lab coat and she's screaming at the top of her lungs: "Let go of me, I'm a nurse." Maybe she's being arrested or just having a bad day in the ER. In fairness, there are other promos with Ms Smith looking very subdued as she looks out at us--her audience-- and assures us, "I'm on your side." Or maybe "I'm always fighting for you." Something like that.
Ms Falco, making the rounds to promote her show, looked great on The View. Like a woman proud of her shapely legs and anxious to show them. But she was decked out in a dress so tight and so short that it was distracting to watch her spend half her talk time tugging at her hem. On radio, where legs and hems don't matter, Ms Falco made a point of saying that she likes acting parts of tough women of very few words. Or something like that. Anyhow in a clip from the show, Ms Falco as Nurse Jackie was giving a big shot doctor hell. I think she may have reversed one of the doctor's orders because she believed his prescribed treatment wouldn't be good for the patient. I almost fell off my chair when I heard that exchange. Actually is wasn't really an exchange because I think the doctor was mostly speechless.
I know nursing has changed a whole lot in the 50 years since Bellevue awarded me my diploma. But I can't believe today's nurses are telling doctors to drop dead, or something like that. Less than a month ago, I had a chance to interview and spend time with dozens of my former classmates---many of them retired now---and not a one sounded anything like Nurses Jackie and Hawthorne.
Real nurses from back in our day, remember when women's career options were limited to nurse, teacher and social worker. All of the so-called "helping professions." Today, it's a whole different story.
That's a point I made when I tried to get a couple of news organizations to cover the reunion of my class on May 16. I thought there was a story worth telling about women who came along in the days before "women's lib", who were members of one of the largest classes of nurses-in- training in the history of Bellevue Hospital, itself one this country's oldest public hospitals. In it's day, Bellevue attracted the best and the brightest from all over (not being immodest here) and on graduating they served in all sorts of situations: clinics, ORs, ERs, Viet Nam, the US Senate, schools, Indian reservations. They assumed leadership roles in the profession and helped educate students and younger nurses. Some got married and raised families and continued working.
But guess what? There was no actionable interest in these real nurses. Fugeddabout it! Who gives a darn about people whose work is helping save lives, not taking them.?Or about women from the 60's who are over 60 when that 60-seconds of air time on your average news and talk shows could be spent on murders and celebrity hotties in thigh high dresses. The real life adventures of nurses were not reel enough. And since I started this post, Michael Jackson has died! Michael Jackson 24/7 on MSNBC puts the lie to the often heard media mantra, "Oh, we don't have enough time for (fill in the blank), or "We're running out of time, could you sum up your remarks in 10-seconds?"
I'm not expressing sour grapes here. I spent almost 30 years covering all sorts of breaking news and features as well as so-called "human interest" stories (a dumb term if I ever heard one. Any story lacking human interest has no place in any news outlet). So I know a good story when I see one. I thought some other folks might, too. But they were busy with the swine flu, or some other panic story that had not yet materialized.
More than ever news stories are about what "may" happen, what "could" happen. What "is"
happening is just too....uhmmm, too boring. Not scary enough. Today's reporters need to be predictors, crystal ball gazers. It's not enough to be here now, one must be way ahead in the future. Speculating, for instance, about who will be running for president in 2012!
I fear that many American have reached a point where they prefer the reel to the real. How else to explain the popularity of the mis-named "reality" shows? Or of Hummers, the military vehicle-style for people who wouldn't be caught dead on a real battlefield say in Pakistan or Afghanistan.
Here we are smack dab in the middle of a national debate about reforming our health care system and the delivery of health care so that all Americans are not only covered, but can get quality care without bankrupting the nation and where are nurses' voices being heard? Not on Face The Nation, Meet The Press, This Week....or any of the media platforms that supposedly educate the populous and give exposure to opinion-makers.
Nurses are and have always been important actors on the health care scene! And I'm talking about real nurses, not the people who play nurses on television.
Monday, May 25, 2009
A Winning Shot
Lebron James did that in real life when his Cleveland Cavaliers beat the Orlando Magic in the third game of their battle to be the best in the East in the NBA playoffs. With only one second left on the clock, James caught an inbounds pass from teammate Moe Williams, turned just a tad to avert an opponent, and sank a 3-pointer. Nothin' but net! Game over! But that turned out to be the Cavaliers only win against the Magic. No title for the Cavs this year.
Still, each time I watched a re-play of that miracle at the Q Arena, I got goosebumps. James' poise (and Williams', too) under pressure was incredible. Inspiring. How does someone so young ---he's 24 and went directly from high school to the pros 5 yrs ago without missing a beat--remain so fearless, so cool?
Well, I could put that same question to LA Lakers guard Derek Fisher. At 34, he's 10 years older than Lebron and considered "the old man" of his team. But it was Fisher's 3-pointer with seconds to go in the Lakers 5th game against Orlando that sent the game into overtime, and still another 3-pointer in OT that put the Lakers a game away from the NBA title.
"Old man" Fisher has something like 40 career 3-pointers in NBA Finals under his belt. In other words Fisher's had lots of successes--- the result, for sure--- of lots of practice. Everyone has heard that old saw "practice makes perfect." In his book, "Outliers" writer, Malcolm Gladwell, one of my writing heroes, examines the makings of success. He cites the successes of athletes, software developers and musicians---all of whom posess innate talent and who have had opportunities. But it is practice, practice and more practice that separates the most successful in their fields. Up to 10-thousand hours or more of practice.
Let me say that again, ten thousand hours! I calculated that to be 1,250 eight hour days. Now, I'm thinking, "What have I spent that many hours practicing in my 70 years on the planet? Worrying, maybe. I have lots of practice in worry. Procrastination? I'm practiced in that, too. I can't say I've put in a whole lot of hours getting good at the things I profess to want to get good at like writing, thinking, playing the flute, cooking, drawing, gardening, playing a jumbe drum, mastering Microsoft Word, sufing the internet. Just today I gave up in frustration trying to set tabs for a My Documents work.
I do talk about practice, though. My Buddhist practice. The writing practice that Natalie Goldberg, one of my favorite teachers teaches. I'm fascinated with practice---that is the idea of it. Even the idea that one can practice something incorrectly and get good at that. Something a long-ago flute teacher picked up and pointed out to me when I went home from a lesson and practiced the wrong note for a week! Even Malcolm Gladwell failed to point out that it's not just a matter of those ten thousand hours of practice that make for success. It's the right practice!
I was rooting for the Cleveland Cavaliers and their star, Lebron James (we're from the same hometown, Akron, Ohio) to make it to the NBA Finals. Had the Cavs gone up against Derek Fisher and Kobe and company I wonder if the Cavs relative youth might have undermined them in the end. Would they have been still too young to have put in all the needed practice time?
Monday, April 20, 2009
Bellevue Class of '59
People who know anything about nurses or nursing history recognize the Bellevue School of Nursing cap, or "organdy cupcake" as it's affectionately known.
I was presented with one nearly 52 years ago, during the capping ceremony that marked our classes' first year of training. How young we were. Most of us only a year out of high school. But how we matured in that year and over the next two. We took on serious responsibilites at an early age, not just for ourselves---away from home and on our own for the first time---but for the patients for whom we would learn to care.
Care, that was the byword then. And the people who came to Bellevue back then needed care in the worst way. They were mostly poor ---today they would be called "medically underserved"--- which usually meant they had not received much in the way of medical attention before they arrived at Bellevue. And what a place that was---the old Bellevue as everyone called it because its new replacement was talked about for years before it materialized.
A teaching hospital, renowned for it's many "firsts', Nobel prize-winners , leaders in medicine---and of course its psychiatric pavillion--- Bellevue is the nation's oldest public hospital. And for someone like me from the mid-west who had never experienced an institution of such giant size reputation and physical structure, Bellevue was also the scariest. With it's large medical and surgical wards and dim corridors, it seemed bathed in a gray cast really downright spooky. That is until you got to know your way around its many buildings. Though some parts of the hospital always appeared brighter to me than others---the pediatric wards, for instance and the OR.
Just as we learned the meaning of care as nursing students, our training at Bellevue also taught us to improvise. Being a city hospital, we were always running short of something, washclothes, pajamas, sheets--you name it.
If getting "capped" was the highlight of our academic experience at Bellevue, and a measure of our progress toward the goal of becoming RN's, then the low points, at least for me, were the times when I lost a patient--suddenly and unexpectedly, when the efforts of interns and residents and experienced nurses was not enough.
It was just such an experience one night working per diem in Bellevue's ER that became a turning point in my nursing career. A night that I witnessed the loss of life of a 20-something sister and brother, injured in a car accident, dying within minutes of each other. I realized I didn't have the right stuff for the kind of nurse I thought I should be.
Years later, I would realizewhat great preparation my nurses' training had been for my new work as a newscaster.
On May 16, I'll be joining about 90 former classmates to celebrate the 50th anniversary of our graduation, the class of '59. We'll be cruising on the Hudson, all the way west from our old stomping grounds at 440 East 26th Street. You can bet we'll have a lot to talk about.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Lipstick on the Queen
Which just goes to show that nature runs its course no matter what titles we humans bestow on one another. Queen, King, first lady, or president---we all grow old and shrink over time. Underneath all the titles, the pomp and circumstance, we are all only human, subject to human frailty.
In 1965, Queen Elizabeth and Prince Phillip paid a visit to Trinidad, a former colony. It just so happened that I was there, too, on my honeymoon in Port-of-Spain. Because my then-husband's aunt held a high post in the Trinidadian equivalent of the US Veteran's Administration, he and I got to stand among the veterans to be reviewed by the royals in a local park.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Writer's Conference
One thing I want to tell you about now, and I'll save the rest for later, is this: One of the presenters, Matt Birbeck, an award-winning investigative journalist and author has just signed a movie deal for his book "Deconstructing Sammy."
Birbeck shared the news after I asked him if he thought his book on the tragic life of Sammy Davis, Jr. would be movie material, and if that explained his use of the term "back story"when he described his layered approach to writing about one of the most versatile and troubled entertainers of our era. Sure enough, Birbeck admitted that he started thinking "movie" soon after he started turning up some of the unexamined pieces of Davis' life.
And who might be cast in the role of Davis? C'mon, that to me is a no-brainer. Who else but Jamie Foxx?(he'd have to lose about 60 pounds first, though)
Sammy Davis, Jr's birthday and mine are the same: December 8. That made him someone special to me. As a kid growing up in Ohio, I kept up with Sammy and his career starting from the years he and his uncle tap danced as part of the Will Mastin Trio, and I cried hard when he got hurt in a car crash that caused him to lose an eye. Years later, at Birdland ,the Manhattan jazz club, I spotted Davis at a table with friends and politely approached him and asked for his autograph. Let's just say he wasn't very nice.That encounter left me promising myself that if I ever became well known and somebody asked me for an autograph I would try not to be like Davis.
If a movie does get made from Birbeck's book, it could go a long way toward re-establishing Sammy Davis, Jr's reputation as a multi-talented entertainer, a gifted dancer, singer and actor who today, is mostly a forgotten man.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Who Would Have Imagined It?
I direct the cameraman, the electrician and the sound man (remember this was back in the days of 16mm film, before one-man-band video tape news) to get shots of the impressive Plaza Hotel, and the usually blasé New Yorkers--- now turned into laughing, applauding gawkers--- and a spritely young Frenchman who has the crowd in the palm of his hand. At one point, he stretches a tight rope between two trees, and to the crowd’s delight, proceeds to walk it. We capture all of this on film.
Fast forward, again. It’s August 7, 1974. I’m not due at work until late afternoon, and so I’m still lying in my bed. The radio is tuned to an all-news station. It’s 7:17am and a reporter is saying that a crowd has gathered at the foot of the Twin Towers. People are watching a man walk a tight rope between the two 110 story buildings. The man is Phillipe Petit. My heart speeds up. I am holding my breath. I am stretched out less than a foot off the floor, but I am as tense as if I were upright, walking that steel wire a quarter of a mile above the street. The daredevil up there is no stranger. He is the engaging street juggler from my non-interview news story. I cross my fingers and pray: “Please, please let him make it across that wire.”
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Miss Canvassing
Now, three days past what will go down in history as an election that transformed our politics, I and others have completed our last walk lists, put our campaign buttons on the dresser and turned from celebration to contemplation.
A Door In Pen Argyl
I’ve been thinking about our Obama victory here in Pennsylvania—and especially our winning in my part of northeast PA— and the spirit and the opportunity that the Slate Belt Team has been.s. An ideal world might possibly look like the one our team created together where everyone brought to the table the thing they do most naturally. The thing that is very much needed. We have been drivers and phoners, cooks and list-makers, letter writers and cleaners, team leaders and organizers, data coordinators and canvassers and record keepers and cheerleaders and sign-makers and thinkers and talkers. Most of all we have been the hope-mongers that Barack said we need to be if we were/are the antidote to the hate-mongers that have being doing their best to keep our country divided.
As for me, I have loved canvassing and learned so much from it. It has allowed me to see people in all of our diversity. And I hope it isn’t immodest to say that canvassing is an act of courage. Nothing could be scarier or more intimidating than chancing a face-to-face meeting with a stranger. Of course, none of the folks who answer our knocks are ever really strangers. There’s usually something about them that says something about us. Says something about our own fears, our courtesy, our evasiveness, our resentment, our gratitude, our good humor and our ill will. And the pre-conceived notions we have about each other before either one of us has even opened our mouths.
A couple of Sundays ago I knocked at the door of a house high on a hill off of Delabole Rd in Pen Argyl and the woman who answered—looking first through the screen door— said that the 34 yr old woman on my list was her ex-daughter-in-law who was very ill with MS and would not be voting. She said the other name was that of her husband and he was not at home. I thanked the woman for her time and asked if she would give one of our flyers and a tax comparison card to her husband. As I was walking away she called out “Thanks so much for what you’re doing.” That took me by surprise because she didn’t look like someone who would be supporting Obama. My car was parked at the top of a long driveway leading to the main road and the view of the hills and valley, the trees and the leaves all red and gold was breathtaking.
As I was about to drive off, a middle-aged man headed toward my car. He was dressed in work clothes and a baseball cap and as he got closer he removed one of his work gloves. He looked menacing, like he was about to order me off his property or worse. When he reached my car,I rolled down the window, stuck my hand out and introduced myself.
He didn’t take my hand. I thought I was in real trouble. Instead, this man began to tell me why he was for Barack!. “He’s the only possible choice any rational person could make” he said. “I heard someone say the other day that he’s the one, the one for this time” Again, I was taken by surprise. In a million years I would never have thought this man could be an Obama supporter. He was everything the pollsters and pundits said was anti-Barack: white, rural, angry, hardworking, blue collar, probably a gun-owner.
Turned out he was an ex-marine, born in Bethlehem, lived all his life in the area, was caring for his ex-daughter-in-law, “Who would have thought I’d end up being a nurse?” he said, more a statement than a question. “You can’t just put a person away in an institution, can you? Besides I don’t think she’s going to make it to Christmas.” And he thinks the property that he bought when a large farm was subdivided in the 1970’s is the most beautiful place in the world. “Look over there” he said pointing an ungloved finger toward the horizon, “Ät night you can see the lights from the trucks on rte 33.”
He said he would have voted for John McCain 4 yrs ago. But not now. “He’s changed. His time has passed. He’s not the same McCain. It’s Obama’s time now” he said as I just listened in amazement.
I was near tears by the time he finished talking and we shook hands,said goodbye and I drove off to the next house. And the next stranger.
I’m really going to miss canvassing. And I’m going to miss the Slate Belt team. But I’ll always be grateful to Barack for bringing us together in this extraordinary year.
The Two McCains
By Melba Tolliver
9/18/2008
I’m scared. There appears to be two John McCains running for president. There’s the John McCain who on page 68 of his book Why Courage Matters instructs parents on how to start their children thinking about honesty. Comparing himself to his own father, McCain writes, “He wouldn’t tell a lie, ever.” McCain admits, “I have not lived as honestly as he did.” Änd McCain adds, “Whenever I’ve been less than honest, I’ve felt ashamed and much worse than had I told the truth and taken the consequences.” And then there’s the other John McCain. The one who most major news organizations, fact-checkers and even some Republicans are calling out as one big fat liar.
There’s the John McCain advertising himself as an agent of change. And there’s the other John McCain who changes the subject every time he’s caught telling one of his big fat lies. There’s the McCain who prides himself on his patriotism. Then there’s the other one who rarely wears a flag pin.
There’s one of the most celebrated POW’s in our nation’s history who ridicules his opponent for being a celebrity. There’s the McCain who says he’s going to kick butt in Washington. But there’s the other McCain, a Washington insider, boastful deregulator, Arizona congressman and senator who’s never held another civilian job except a couple of years on the payroll of his wife’s beer business.
There’s the John McCain who promises to lead Americans into a bright and prosperous future. And the John McCain who admits he knows next to nothing about our economy and even less about how to send an e-mail or how ordinary people are using 21st century technology to build and strengthen communities. Something, by the way that Barack Obama—former community organizer—- uses effectively and efficiently.
So who exactly are the entrenched folks McCain intends to kick around if he makes it to the presidency? Watching McCain kick himself will be a sight to see.
And what about his running mate? She seems to have an evil twin as well. There’s Sarah the earmarks buster and Sarah who overloaded Alaska’s shopping cart with pork every chance she got. Then there’s Sarah who was all for the bridge to nowhere until the Congress said no deal. Then she morphed into the Sarah who jumped off the bridge idea.
This election just isn’t fair. The Republicans are running four candidates, while the poor Democrats only get to run two. And if the Republicans win the White House how will we know which of the two McCains or the two Palins is calling the shots?
I guess that question explains why some voters remain undecided.
Undecideds
by Melba Tolliver
October 21, 2008
When New Mexico governor Bill Richardson made a campaign stop for Senator Barack Obama here in northeast Pennsylvania last month, I spoke up and voiced my concern about registered voters who tell me they are still undecided. To read about this visit click here
In his amiable, folksy way, the popular Richardson sought to dispel my anxiety. Maybe because I’m obviously black, Richardson, who was speaking at the Council of Spanish Speaking Organizations, addressed my question in terms of race, though I never used that word. He conceded that a certain percentage of white voters will not pull the lever for Obama on November 4th. Richardson went on to say that strong support for Obama among young voters and independents—of various racial and ethnic groups, though Richardson did not describe them as such—will offset the anti-black voters. Being the optimist that I am, I hope Richardson is correct. None of us will know until the votes are counted and analyzed.
But I want to make a couple of points here. First, I never mentioned race when making my comments to Richardson. He assumed that was my point in noting that many voters that I encounter when knocking on doors say they remain undecided. Like Richardson, the newspaper reporter who wrote about comments also heard a word I never used and assumed that that’s what I was talking about.
It’s the kind of assuming that goes on a lot around black people. If you’re black and supporting Obama it’s assumed you’re racially motivated. Even Colin Powell—a black, but a non-race man— who endorsed Obama on Sunday is subject to such assumptions. Never mind that 95% of black folks gave their votes to John Kerry last time around. Never mind that black voters have helped elect Democrats in elections big and small since before FDR. Never mind that blacks who will vote for Obama may be smart enough to vote for the candidate who’s got the best grip on the failing economy, the failed Iraq/Afghanistan policy, the failed health insurance system—the failures in America that run across the board. That candidate is certainly not John McCain. And black voters like the majority of all other voters haven’t been fired up by any of the third party candidates.
Obama for all his “blackness” is after all a mixed race man. Half black, half white. Son of a black African father and a white American mother. Raised mostly by his white grandparents, and himself. So what does that say about him? Nothing much unless we resort to the tired stereotypes about black people and white people. What does tell us something useful about Obama and the kind of man he is, the kind of president he might be are these things: His campaign which , according to some observers, is the most disciplined political campaign in American history. His brilliant and audacious use of the Internet for fund raising, social networking, volunteer organizing—again, prompting some to observe that if Obama is elected, he and his operatives will have changed presidential politics forever.